Tuesday, 30 April 2019
Melancholy
If this is a timeline of whenever we fight you would see that it happens once every few months. Some say this is normal other will say it is not normal. Some will blame it on her some will blame it on me. She will blame it on her time of the month and I will blame it on my mood elevations.
I am dressed smartly today. I will go sit on the bench and stare into the heads. I will watch The Nieuw Holland sail through.
Do I own this life to take it? If i don't take it who will?
Why is my condition not looked at with prevalence. Am I not suffering just as you are? Why can't you not do what you do on the back of what is happening inside me?
Maybe because mines isn't diagnosed or is mines just a joke condition that isn't taken seriously. Maybe I should go get a paper from the men in white coats to prove to you that I have what I have and I am not lying or exaggerating or making assumptions or being passive aggressive or playing the victim or speaking with tone or being rude or being condescending or making you feel like little or making you feel like a maid or doing little things that you think other wise or anything else I have missed. Maybe with a paper from them you will understand the seriousness of this.
Or maybe when its all gone you will notice then. Maybe when good is gone you will realise what you had.
Always that about this place for many years but have kept it at bay. I have never been there as I am scared I will not return. I heard it calls your name when you are there for those that feel the way I do. I have been told these voices are of those that have left from there. I have been told there are letters engraved into the seats, walls and tables there of their last words.
I have been told that there is something creepy about that place but I have never been. I have been too scared. But now I ask what am i scared of?
Whatever will be, will be.
I am inevitable...
Wednesday, 27 March 2019
Binaural
So I am here again. This isn't my town anymore as you know I have broken free from that. I think I have have become a lot better with my self. I feel that I have changed for the better.
Sometimes I see through humans. Sometimes I can feel what they are going to say before they say it. Sometimes I can feel their breath as if it was my own.
I have been told before that I have a special mind, not by one person but a few. Do people not see that now? Has time changed so much and has social media killed our views to see what is special?
I know I am different, not just by the way I dress, act or talk. Not even by my skin colour or beard but with the way my brain works, with the way I think and the way i articulate my self.
In Chinese philosophy, yin and yang is a concept of dualism in ancient Chinese philosophy, describing how seemingly opposite or contrary forces may actually be complementary, interconnected, and interdependent in the natural world, and how they may give rise to each other as they interrelate to one another.
You see instead of spending five to ten minutes explaining/arguing something to another party as to why you don't want do something maybe save time, save energy and save peacefulness by saying "If it means that much to you then I will do it".
My brain waves are different to other people. The memories I have and keep are different from other people. I can feel a memory that I know never has happened because it is impossible to live in Space but I remember being there I feel like it was real. Maybe in my past life my soul lived there and now I am remembering it through my human self.
I have always asked the question as to why Seven Billion of us are here. Why do we need to exist? If we stopped existing wouldn't Earth survive without us? I think it would be even better.
My brain hurts at times, my heart hurts also but I know my soul isn't hurting because hurt is a physical feeling that can only be felt physically.
One day my soul will leave this body and will find a resting place. I will finally see those souls that have left here again and become one with them again.
The when of life is a fascinating thing. The unknown of living, what will be of tomorrow or the day after. No one knows but the future does exist and if the future is as real as the present then surely it is a place that we can get to.
One day, I know this will make sense but for now I will wait and continue to wait to see what happens.
Because we are here for a reason and whatever that reason might be the answer doesn't necessarily have to be on Earth.
The answer might be at where we came from. I think we should look to where we came from to answer why we are here.
How do we get to where we came from? To take what has been given to us to be here in the first place, this is life.
Not taking suicide nor taking death but allowing it to natural occur once our organisms expire.
Once they do we will know the truth.
ibzzie xx
Thursday, 10 January 2019
revolution
What have you become? Today in 2019. This is the most amazing time to be alive, but I ask again, what have you become?
You
sit at a table before with food in front of you and before you say grace, fuck
it even if you don't believe in God, you no longer stare at your food and
wonder what you are going to eat, think about where it came from and what it is
going to do to you once you eat it. You instead pull out an extension of yourselves
and start to take photos and with the same device you send messages and make
phone calls to you friends who are nowhere near us. You discuss whether the
photo looks good and then you send it to platforms, so the world can see. After
all this is done you then consume the food.
You stare into a little eye on this
device swiping left and right finding a filter that makes you look better and
then when you find this filter you will just stare into it play with your hair,
blink and smile. After this you then send it to a platform so the whole world
can see.
What are you? What have you contributed
to society? Are you becoming dumber as a race? Are there going to be any more
professors, scientists or inventors?
You have declined into what? No more
respect amongst any of you, regardless of race or gender it has all gone.
You base judgements on someone depending
on their likes, followers and popularity amongst the others of you based on artificial
feelings towards one another, can you not see that this is not real? That these
likes, feelings, red love hearts and blue thumbs are fake. They do not exist in
the real world or are you already becoming one with the fake world, one with
the artificial world. I can see you becoming artificial intelligence.
What if this is what is going to happen?
What if you do not build artificial intelligence but become them? Turning into them
over years and years of using them that they will consume you and then
eventually turn you into A.I. The battle will then break out against those whom
have yet to turn and those who have turned.
What if all those zombie movies you
watch that have humans “turning” into monsters is happening now? In the movies
all the zombies have a common goal which is to eat brains and kill humans. What
if you are a zombie now feeding off the likes of others which in turns give you
energy in the form of dopamine.
What have you become? How have you
transformed from hunters and gatherers that use their bodies the way it was
meant to be used but now you have become a new form a being.
An Artificial Being…
ibzzie xx
Thursday, 13 December 2018
KV55
In history more often than not whom ever enters power and wants to change the natural order of the system is right away ridiculed.
Take for example the Egyptian pharaoh Akhenaten. He came into power and wanted to change the Egyptian peoples ideology from Polytheism to Monolatry worshipping the God Aten. During his 17 year reign majority of the Egyptians did not agree with this thought and were very unhappy with the change from what they have been following for so long.
Why is this though? I believe it is because humans are creatures of habit. They do not like change from what they have initially been taught. Think about this for a second. If the Egyptians have been told from the start that Aten was the King of Gods and to only worship one God and then Akhenaten came into power and told them to believe in multiple Gods the same outcome would have occurred. The Egyptians desecrated his tomb and coffin after his death, they wanted to ensure that the future civilisations did not know about his ideas and thoughts of Aten. They went to great lengths to ensure that his ideology was not passed onto future Pharaohs by chiselling away at the paintings, his coffin and burning his papaya.
Think about it, humans are animals of routine once something occurs that shakes their daily routine they become frustrated, angry and annoyed. They do no adapt to new ideas easily. That is why they fight. That is why they go to war. To ensure an idea is spread or stopped. Humans do not have it in them to fight or to kill. Humans are made to love and to become one with their surroundings.
I have seen it all before, it feels like I have lived in it before. Humans living happily all together in unity ensuring their love is spread through out universe, not just Earth but their connection to the Stars, Galaxies and Planets.
If we started from a Big Bang that caused millions and millions of Stars to bond together then are we not just particles that need to bond with one another to continue to grow.
Think about the Universe is constantly expanding never shrinking then we should do the same, we should constantly expand and never shrink by killing one another, by never fighting or hurting one another.
Imagine if all humans on earth all held hands together at once, imagine the energy that will be felt running through our veins.
The power of One is not a strong as the power of many.
I have memories that I don't remember...
ibzzie xx
Thursday, 4 October 2018
L H G
Hello friend. Doesn't it feel weird being Numb. If you define "Numb" it is "deprived of the power of physical sensation". Think about that for a second, let it sink in for a bit.
I always tell everyone to sit and stare at them selves in front of the mirror, to re connect with them selves. Not when you are doing your hair, not when you are doing your makeup or brushing your teeth but just sit and stare doing nothing stare intro your own eyes, stare at your own skin and let your self feel your self. Know how that feels. I know it sound weird but try it and then you will understand what I mean. Question your self and analyse every part of your self believe that you can leave your body and explore what is out there. Know your self before anyone knows you. Love your self before anyone loves you. You need to know how these feel before anyone can show you how they feel.
Think about this for a second. We all have souls inside us, Our bodies are just the vessel to carry the soul. When we sleep the soul leaves our body and we stay asleep. When we wake up the soul returns to us and we go about our daily life. We see through our eyes but it is in fact the soul seeing not us.
This is a natural ability we have because we are souls inside of
a human body. So being in the "Astra" form is close to our natural state.
You can be present in your dream. Astral
projection is just being fully aware of the experience we have every night.
When we're dreaming we become unaware of this world and fully focused in
whatever world we're in. You're still on the astral plane in a dream. Why do
you think souls that are in the spirit world can visit you in your Dreams? Yes,
those dreams are very real a lot of people who knew you from your past lives
visit you in your dreams just to check up on you. In my opinion dreams,
lucid dreaming and Astral Projection is all happening in the same place it's
just that when you're dreaming you're not fully aware of what's happening. In
my opinion the reason why, dreams do not seem like Astral projection is because
it's like being drunk or on drugs in our real world You're just not fully aware
but you're still in the real world.
Imagine leaving and not coming back, travelling the galaxy and seeing what is out there. Imagine looking back at your self whilst you sleep and knowing that is your body, your vessel. We have become so disconnected that we cannot picture this nor do we believe in its existence, people laugh.
How my mind works no one will ever understand, I see the unseen, I feel what cannot be felt, I know tomorrow today.
The answers you seek are not here, they are out there. Look at your self, know your self and understand that you are really inside something called a "Body" out of this body you will be able to disconnect and explore the real world.
For me I will be out there, somewhere...
ibzzie xx
Tuesday, 2 October 2018
12
12 letters are all it takes and yet it feels like moving mountains
to achieve what we want. A common goal.
So, it seems to be a reoccurring thought of ours that we are
here united under one everything but cannot unite anything.
Are we destined for this? Think about it deeply 7 billion on
a mote of dust living, breathing, moving and creating energy. How with time
have we become stupider with all that is available to us we now express how we
feel through a touch screen. We give up so easy, we become fed up so easy, we
have started to hate repeating our self, we have started to dislike the circle
things go in, we have started to forget about all the good when a small bad occurs,
we started to forget about all the love when a big bad occurs. Have we been programmed
to hate, has hate truly won event against those loved ones?
Is it possible to be re programmed to the way it is meant to
be? To a time that no matter what happens and no matter how hard it gets and no
matter how many times someone must repeat themselves love remains the same. We have
become a race that will express love in one way but then express hate in
another. We have become someone we are not. We are not destined for this.
Something is going to happen.
I have always known I am different, now I know why…
ibzzie xx
Aokigahara
How about this, does this fit the scene? Not being able to see what is actually happening around us remaining concealed within the dark not being able to be seen lingering. We all can feel it it unites us does it not?
Lets look at it from 149.6 million km away, how would it look? would it look the same? From that distance nothing will look the same nor will it feel the same or think the same so why at this current distance that we are living every day does it seem so foul? is it that the further you are the easier it is, that it gets better with distance or time?
Some where out there people enter and never come out, they go there to do what they feel needs to be done. I think that they feel they will be free for ever. Maybe that is right maybe this is all fake and the only way to be free is by letting go.
You will never be free until you free yourself from the prison of your own false thoughts.
ibzzie xx
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